With each word my heart breaks more and more,
I hear their pain in each syllable,
The pain of the children and the pain of the parents,
Their broken hearts reduce me to a pile of tears,
Why God have you allowed this to happen?
Isn’t there a way for them to avoid this pain?
I love you and they love you, and we are all hurting,
I want to be angry with you but I cant’.
It would all be so much easier if I could just blame this one you.
If I could just point a finger straight at your heart,
However my knowledge and experience of you stop me,
Your nature and character are good. This I cannot challenge,
You have walked me through the valley of death so many times before,
Always leading me safely to the other side,
But this isn’t me it is my family,
It is so much harder to be brave when it is them,
My knowledge of you comforts me and yet at the same time scares me,
You are not a tame God. You are not a safe God.
You are good yes, but you plans and paths are unfathomable,
I know that you will lead us through this,
but you did not say how long the journey might be.
You have not shown us the path or what else is in the valley.
I need them to be Ok. To be safe ,to be free to be a family again.
God I can’t handle this. I can’t handle possible loosing them.
I can’t handle their pain and their tears. I just want to run.
Watching this battle is killing my heart.
The thought of what could be is overwhelming me.
I know that in the end you will win the war,
But you did not promise me that you would win every battle,
Only that you will always be there and that the ultimate battle will be your,
The more I know you, the more I realize pain will always be around me here,
You have not called me to an easy life, to a pain free existence,
You allow me to share your burden and the pain of your heart,
To see the world through the eyes of your heart,
God I can do this, but not with them…
Please God, I am begging you to step in and have the valley end here,
For the trial to be the end of this battle and the place where your glory is shown,
I need you to tae care of them and make everything OK,
To frighten all their enemies away and silence the devil,
GOD, SHOW YOUR POWER.
Show those who mean to harm your children, who you are,
Defeat their enemies in decisive victory that spreads your kingdom,
Please God; don’t allow this to linger on,
Don’t let the enemy have this round. They need their parents.
God you come first. But then comes family. Do not allow that to be taken from them.
Do not allow them enemy to steal the joy and life from their hearts.
SHOW YOURSELF TO BE GOD.
